Maybe it's pathetic to write something like this on the internet, but I need help.
My boyfriend told me last night that he talked to a few people and they suggested we take a break to figure out if I am the woman he wants to marry! HE needs to take a break! I’m the one with three kids! I’m the one who has to analyze everything BEFORE I decide that I want a relationship or not! Well, I told him that we could take a break, but it would not be exclusive.
First of all, I am the best girlfriend ever (and modest!) I love him, support him and give, give, give. I’m not complaining about him in that area, mind you. We’ve been together for a year. He treats me great! He supports me and cares about me and I truly love him. The way he treats me makes me want to love him and support him and give!
I am so hurt, it seems that I keep falling into these relationships where the guy I’m dating is using me to grow! “Oh, I’ll have pity on the hot, single mom, maybe I’ll like it? I can rescue her. Her kids really need a good influence. Maybe it’ll work out? I’ll just take it day by day.” Then a few months down the road, they decide that they’re “not ready for this” and they leave, abandoning my beautiful, innocent kids and me.
I have had every type of relationship imaginable. This one though, is my first really healthy one. I’m finally in a place where I don’t need anyone, I want someone. It seemed that we were a team. We never fought; we had a few arguments, but never really fought.
I understand that if it’s not meant to be, it’s not meant to be. That doesn’t shield me from the pain of giving my heart to someone and having it rejected. I know what I want and it took me a long time to know that he was the one who had it. He doesn’t feel the same about me.
I know I should be more on guard when it comes to these matters, but this is me. In the end, I will know that I gave it everything I had. I will have no regrets.
Tell me people; does this seem to be the end? Should I say, “You want space, I’ll give you space!” and move on?